So bury me in memory.

Reading through Tavi's blog, I could sense an ever growing sense of inferiority coming over me. Here is this girl, the same age as me, who is confident and smart and witty and...I could go on and on, and still would feel inferior. She is successful and practically has her career set...and she's only a teenager. Not only can I not ever hope to become like her, I can barely hope to become ANYTHING recognizable. Well, I CAN hope, but I'm not sure if it'll ever happen. In my wildest dreams, I have been a famous journalist or author, a musician and once, a scientist. All three of them seem so tempting to me.

In my most recent daydreams, I am performing my own song that I have written, and, suddenly and for no reason at all, my favourite band, Fall Out Boy, come out of nowhere and say that I am very talented and I should go on tour with them. I doubt that this will ever happen..Well, I like to hope but...

Also, in my fantasies, I have written a successful series of adventure books, and...then I wake up and I realise that I'm just a normal thirteen year old girl who can play guitar, and who can sing a bit, but is not the greatest guitar player ever,and can barely be heard when I sing and the girl who likes science and does good in it at school, but is not the future Einstein. Then I see the girl who loves reading and writing stories but has been suffering from writers block for the past year.

I will never believe in anything again,
Though change will come, oh, change will come,
I will never believe in anything again.


Thanks for reading.

Whoever you are.